Just wanted to post my insane journal link, i haven't posted any poems on there yet, but i shall. :)
http://lianailia36.insanejournal.com/ There you go! Enjoy. See you all later.
-Lina

Hi, long time no see. I have been not here because of work, school, and battlestar. it has started again! i am so excited. everything is right with the world. now only if eureka, atlantis, pushing daisies and heroes would come back. i'm not asking for a whole lot, am I? lol but yeah, the other reasons have been going well. heh. u can tell i am lazy tonight. i just had a speech, well, commercial really, for class where i had to speak in front of ppl. after that my mind goes blank. i'm in a good mood though. got lots of new anime lately. the best of it being kanon and xxxholic. awesome. kanon is brilliant. i want to keep yuichi. another reason why we NEED holodecks! come on ppl, ur close, why can't someone just make one? and give it to me. lol neways... my auction went for quite a bit, so i was very happy about that as well. love ebay. if it went away, i would cry. speaking of going away, i am going to do that. i'll still be here, just not posting. i am going to switch over to insane journal, which is where my friend anthy is. :) it's not that i hate it here, i just need a change. plus i have like 50 other things on the internet it seems like. and no time lately. i just made like 3 appointments today. been to the doctor's twice (nothing's wrong with me, just checkups) and work and school have been eating away at me. sleep is not an option right now. and now i may not even graduate until december, which would really suck. i need one class! one! hopefully they'll still let me in may. but i doubt it. grr. oh well. can't wait until next week when okami comes out. that's another thing that's been keeping me busy too. video games. i don't really consider myself a huge gamer like my bro, but it does keep me occupied through most of my spare time. loving half life 2, even though it's hard sometimes. but i like challenges. and i've still been playing smash bros and started wind waker over again. and there's the ds. arrrg! no time! okay... I shall take my leave now. Hope you all will miss me. I will have my insane journal up here when i get it all figured out. until then, sayonara!
-Lina

Hey, it's been awhile. I know i don't update as often as i should, which is why i may quit livejournal. i feel like i'm quitting the internet. heh. that will be the day. but i no longer have my ff.net account, or no longer update i should say. i just don't have time anymore. although i shouldn't say that cuz i still find time to brawl and play other games and watch an enourmous amount of tv. but if i did not have cable, i don't know what i would do. lol i know there are other things in life to do, but it's just one of my relaxation things. aots made me happy yesterday after driving, which always seems to make me angry. there was an accident on the way home from violin, that i did not see, but the car was in the middle of the intersection practically, and ppl were going around it, being stupid. and they were stupid the whole day pretty much. but yeah, today i woke up and went downstairs and saw that it was snowing. it's the second day of spring! grr. why can't we have good weather on good friday? had to walk to church and it was hard cuz ppl hadn't shoveled yet and the wind was so strong. almost fainted on the way home a couple of times. it's not that far from my house, but still.
my job is going well, at crawford. i love the ppl there, so it is awesome. everyone seems to have a lot of fun, so i think i would like it if i had a full time position there, which will hopefully happen after i graduate. only two and a half months! i can't believe it. it seems like college took forever, now it's speeding towards the end. which is a good thing i guess, then i'll be able to move out and get a kitty! i really really want one. loved playing with my friend's while i was over there. she was almost a cat though, but still only a few years old. heh. i want a kitten so i can make lolcat pics. such an awesome site. :) but yeah... been playing brawl like crazy. my cuz came last night and we played for about 3 hours. she loves it too. how can you not? it's so awesome. i unlocked a few things this week. hopefully i can get it set up with the internet, so i can beat ppl online. that would be fun. i need a little more practice though. heh. I got a ds lite the other day! it's so shiny and pretty and i love it. been playing luminous arc on it. the screens are really bright now. and the buttons are in diff places, but other than that i love it.
i am getting my dad's cold, which really sucks, since i don't want to be sick right now. too much going on. and walking out in the snow did not help it. i seem to always be sick around this time of year. grr. it's supposed to be spring. easter is this sunday. spring break is almost over. i go back on tues. nooo! then the next week i have to do a commercial. it shouldn't be too bad, i only talk at the end, but still. we made a cool powerpoint for it though. it's about a smoking ban in the u.s. should be interesting. well, here is a poem since i promised u one last time. it's from my story winged, and sesilae sings it when she is being tortured. you can catch the comic on my dA account, which i will put on my profile if i did not already. hehe.

Raining Mist

This is hard to see,
when you do not love me,
it pains me to say,
that it is the only way,

When you are gone,
my whole world feels wrong,
it tears me up inside,
to think you are not nigh,

When the rain clears,
the pain no longer seers,
what is inside the mist?
when all I see is this?

It feels like nothing is there,
inside the rain and the air,
something tells me you have come,
and now I know it is done,

Yes, it is done.

there you go. an update on my life. not that interesting... i know. but there shall be more later! ja!
-Priestess of Doom

wow... that is the best word to describe this game. it is awesome. :) so fricken unbelievable. I have been playing it nonstop since I got it at midnight Sat night. We (my brother and i) waited in line for two hours for it, since he owns the arcade, we were able to cheat a little. heh but when we got the game we went back to his place and played for four and a half hours before finally going to sleep for a llittle while. but wow is this game awesome! and that is an understatement! i've been playing with zelda, kirby, metaknight, pit (kid ikaris (spell?)), and link. sonic is pretty cool too, just unlocked him tonight. hehe. i did not get very far in the trounament that they had in the store though. i beat the first guy, but then there was a girl who had zelda, the character i had as well. she was really good. even though i had been practicing all night. heh. it still was cool. my bro got all the way up to the second to last one. it was pretty fun though. i am very very very happy right now. even with the lack of sleep. and this wed i start my job at crawford, so that should be interesting. i am getting paid for it, which is a good thing. and i'll still work at the arcade for awhile, which is also good. i haven't had time to write anything. i really want to, but i've been so busy with internships and other stuff. my first day at the volunteer center went well. lots of stuff to do. i'll only be working there a few hours every week now, but it'll be something. well, off to bed now so i can wake up and play a little before work. it's going to be so hard to leave, especially at night. grr. oh well. i should have some new stuf written soon. bleach has inspired me. heh. it was sooo awesome last night. ichigo is my fave character besides uuriyu. mmmmm. glasses. they're both great. well, goodnight world! You may see me over the next few days, u may not. depends on how much time i spend online instead of smashing. lol jaaaa!
-Shadow Lies Within
p.s. Poem next time, i promise. (too much time was spent playing smash to write anything!)

oh today has not been fun at all. well, it was okay except that i wasn't feeling all that great, still aren't. but yeah... let's see, i took my friend's bro to school this morning, almost got stuck in the snow (it was snowing out and the roads had not been plowed very well) by the school, then i came home and slept, emailed my prof the rest of my assignments, was having trouble submitting them yesterday for some reason. oh that was not fun. i was about ready to throw something, or kill the computer, but i couldn't, since it wasn't mine. my prof finally called me and we worked it out. then the good things today were i got a calls from crawford, which is a lawfirm, setting up an interview, and the volunteer center setting me up with the internship. i'm still going to go to the interview, but the internship is only one day a week, so it's not bad. and i still have sundays, which i started last sunday, it went all right. i do like the office. hopefully i'll get a full time job after this. :) but then i went to pick up dave from school, and i had a flat tire. i did not feel anything on the way home, it was only when i got in the garage that i noticed something. so yeah, not the best day in the world. but it worked out, my mom took us. and hopefully i can still go to my bro's to watch atlantis. hehe. carson! he's back, and a zombie... i mean replicator. probably. well, no new poems yet. no nothing actually. been so busy with interviews and school and running around that i haven't had time really to update anything. i may draw some stuff tonight and put it up tomorrow, but it depends on how i'm feeling. yuki and within temptation kept me sane today. the week was good though. dave did not like the wii zapper very much, but his tv was big, so it lagged a bit. well, off to do homework. yay! it's the last thing i have to do though except research for my commercial. fun stuff. so, i shall hopefully have stuff up tomorrow. i apologize. jaaa! *curls up in sock drawer and sleeps for days* (mst3k)
-Shadow Lies Within

Yes, i start my internship with prudential tomorrow. Well, I don't know. it will be just kind of a first day thing, and then see what happens after that. :) But i am excited. And nervous. I know I don't have to be. I know a lot from school, but still. My interview went really well, so hopefully this will too. Just went shopping for clothes today. Got a nice skirt with a suit jacket. don't really care for them, but I have to wear them, so I might as well get used to it. Heh. I don't mind it really. I am also taking my friend's bro to school next week and staying with him, so that should be fun again. I like doing it, even though he's old enough now to drive, he doesn't have his liscense yet. Heh. But I am nice, so yeah... lol My sister's book signing went well. It was where she worked, which i have never seen before, it was a nice place. She was really good at speaking in front of ppl. I probably would have choked and would have run off the stage. I hate it. Even with a group of like 20 ppl, which is what my speech class is. I can't get over it. No matter what i do nothing seems to help. It does help a little if i have something to read instead of trying to remember what to say, but still. In other news... not a whole lot has been going on. Besided the internship stuff. and school and work. I got 2 interviews next week, so maybe if this one doesn't work out i'll get in with one of them. and one of them was looking for a full time position, which is what I'm looking for, but after school. heh. well, going to go play katamari, have to get up to 10000 km. which is a lot. :) here is a poem though to keep u busy! I may just post on my DA account soon, not sure though. I like this site, just not enough time to update both. but here you go:
Dust Rising

When the dust rises,
I know something is wrong,
something is going to happen,
that probably shouldn’t,

It swirls in the wind,
the wind carries it far,
but it is stopped by the cold,
and fades into the light,

When I see this happening,
I wonder about certain things,
are our lives like the dust?
to be there one minute and gone the next?

Sometimes I see particles of something,
it is beautiful, exquisite,
it creates a sphere of colors,
and then explodes into the air,

When will the dust rise?
when will it fall?
these things I often ponder,
and dream about in the night,

The night dust is different,
it shines in the moonlight,
yet it does not move, it stays still,
the stars smile at its beauty,

The dust rising,
its something to watch,
its something to dream about,
it is what we want to be… want to become.

Hope you like! I just wrote it yesterday, sooo yeah. jaaa!
-Priestess of Doom

My interview went great. :) He said that it wouldn't be a problem if i interned there. so i am very excited. he is going to send me a sample article for me to powerpoint and then i am going to go in for a sunday and do some work. so hopefully that will turn into a full time position. it would be awesome. hehe. i am very very happy right now. and i got beautiful katamari for vday yesterday, which is a good game for the 360. i can't get past this level that i'm at right now, but i keep trying. heh. it's really wacky, i expected nothing less from the japanese though. oooo i can't wait until 2 and a half weeks from now when i will be playing smash bros brawl! omg! *jumps up and down* okay, still have a headache. let's see, last weekend was awesome. got to see kate voegele in concert. she rocks. seriously. i like her better live than listening to her songs, but they still are great. the place was tiny, it was in a bar, so of course there were drunks there. lol the opening band was really good too, whitest lights, who i have heard of before, but never heard their stuff. will have to get. the ferrets were sooo cute. riot was really friendly to me right away, and puck had to get used to me, but i loved them both. and seeing my sis and tony was great too. we went to flattop for lunch. mmmm. then we had dinner at like 8 p.m. since we weren't hungry. lol so good. the italian place we went to before the concert was really good too. We had pizza. mmmm. but yeah, yesterday consisted of working, getting my hair cut (it's really short now), and doing homework, which took me 3 hours to do, and i am not kidding. my eyes were so bludshot and i was so tired afterwards. still watched sousuke though! love him to death, as i have said many many times on here. even though he's only 17, still love him. and he's not even real! Damn... why isn't the holodeck invented yet? they are getting close to one. hehehe. i am sooo glad that the writer's strike is over! more tv shows! woot! *does happy dance* i was so excited when i heard that tues. even though heroes won't be here until the fall. atleast i'll have battlestar and eureka to keep me company. heh. well, going to go work on my fics. which haven't been worked on due to writer's block. so i have been on a sort of strike too. lol i know it's not something to joke about, but still. i've been wanting to write, just haven't been able to. school has taken up so much of my time now. grr. well, it will get better. :P there will be a poem up later too, a hell girl inspired one. show is awesome, a bit twisted, but awesome none the less. okay, jaaa!
-Shadow Lies Within

yeah, i've been sick lately. no appetite, cold is getting worse instead of better. something is wrong with me. i keep saying it's the weather, since it can't seem to make up its mind. it snows one day, and then it all melts the next. and then it stays warm for awhile until it snows again. grr. and it doesn't help the crazy ppl on the road. which isn't anything new, but still. and i've been having really weird dreams lately where i'm at someone's house or mine, but it looks completely different. last night's was my friend, anthy's. but it looked like my aunt's house. they were making some weird ice cream, and i was sick, so i really didn't know what was going on. the other one was at my house, and my cousin was getting married. so all of our family and his family was over. we had a bigger house, of course. but then i lost a ring that someone had given me. i found one ring and was like 'i'll give this to chrono! he'll be needing it.' i woke up and went 'what?' sure, i would like to have chrono in my dream, that would be awesome. but still... it was weird. and i think veronica was in my detective dream, which was gross. don't want to explain that one. heh. but neways... been playing assassin's creed, which is awesome. just found out that kristen bell's character had died a couple years ago. creepy. i like things like that. hehe. there may be a ghost character in one of my stories, haven't worked on them, sooo yeah. going to today though. after some homework. blah. it's not bad though. i got the microsoft suite thurs, so i've been playing around with word. it's weird. not sure if i like it or not yet. but we'll see. well, off to do stuff. here is a poem. :)
The Reaper

It awakens for one time only,
For one purpose,
To take the soul of the dying,
To end a person’s life,

The dark haunts this soul,
It tears it down,
Making it easy for it,
It who seeks darkness,

The only place it can dwell,
Is in a soul of the damned,
The souls that can not be saved,
From anything,

It is the thing that people fear the most,
They loathe it and curse its name,
saying it is evil, and dark,
They are mostly right,

The sound of the blade when it strikes,
Rings out in the night,
The blade of death that takes a soul,
Takes it down into the dark,

The reaper,
That is what they call it,
It haunts the dreams of the living,
And shows them no mercy.

I know, i am evil. But if u check out my dA account, u will see the pic that goes with it. it's on my profiles page. :) well, jaaa!
-Priestss of Doom
Can't wait to go to mad_with_july's house! next weekened! woot!

so, hell girl is this neat anime where if you contact hell girl through hell link, u create a contract with her. then she gives u a doll of the person you want to get revenge on, but if you pull the string around the neck, you banish them to hell, but your soul also goes to hell. but only after you die. so you can live a rich, full life, but still go there. so far everyone has pulled the string, but what if they don't? and what if there's a way to reverse the contract, where everyone who was banished to hell after getting their revenge can go to heaven? That would be interesting as well. it made me want to write a buffy fic where she had an online slayer site, so that ppl could contact her if she needed help. but then i thought, no, she wants to keep her identity a secret, or tries to. heh. i'll think of something. :) it's sort of like lain and boogiepop put together. i do like it though, the music is awesome. i got the cd the other day, been listening to it a lot. i also got venus verses virus and a new band called paramore, which i love. love the band, not too crazy about the singer. the singer in oth last night was good. have to get her cd. :) i really hate kevin federline. even more so now after seeing him "act." grrr. that really sucks about heath ledger dying, i was surprised. maybe it is the joker curse, even though jack nicholsan (spell?) is still alive. heh. but yeah, he was too young, even though i didn't like him too much as an actor, that's a shame. *yawn* i am sleepy. been having really strange dreams for the last week. the one i don't ever want to remember ever again. it's soooo bad. i thought they couldn't get any worse than my bioshock one, which was just creepy, but still. let's see, school has started. last night's class was cancelled, which is weird cuz it was the 1st one. i did get my pda working, thanks to my bro. it's pretty cool. i can use it for my internship as well. i have an interview tomorrow with robert baird, so hopefully that will go well. :) i'm kind of nervous, but it should be okay. but i have class tonight and then my online ones. the other one got cancelled too, but then it changed to an online one, so that was good. i was able to get into there right away. should be interesting. well, going to go watch sousuke! he's my puppy. i love him! why isn't he real? like the cake. lol the cake is a lie! oh, went to lost world over the weekend and got a cool bleach wallscroll, a silent mobius manga and the naruto 2 cd. it was fun. also went to my friend christie's shower. i saw my friend noonay, who i hadn't seen since high school. so it was fun. well, now i'm gonna go. here is a short poem, there should be more on my site soon. been feeling creative lately. hell girl has helped with that. lol well, jaaa!
Destruction Waits

I feel him leaving,
I don't want him to go,
why won't he stay with me?
everything falls apart,

something inside me breaks,
maybe it's my heart, maybe my soul,
that part of me that felt love,
that used to be inside me,

something happened,
something is destroying me,
taking all of my power,
all of my will,

when will this akeing end?
this pain and suffering?
I let the water wash away,
all of the sorrow and destruction,

it waits for me everyday,
since he died, nothing is right,
he left me all alone,
and I am afraid, please help me.

there you go! enjoy.
-Shadow Lies Within a.k.a. Hell Girl

All i have to say is that portal is a great game. :) Love it. So glad I got it today. My bro played it and almost beat it, but then he fell off the map, literally. he was in an infinate pit of darkness. it was funny. i am going to be playing it pretty much all night, so no sleep for me! i do have to work tomorrow, but all i do is play ds there, so that's okay. until i get a real job, which even then i won't get sleep. lol sooo many games and much anime to finish, which is always good. hehe. lost universe is really cool. slayers references! yay! it's by the same creators, so i didn't expect anything less. heh. but yeah, not much has been going on. went to my friend's on fri's. we had fun. haven't seen her in a long time it seemed like. but we talk often. she just lives kind of far away. she has a very cute kitty that warmed up to me almost right away. she came over by me while we were watching mst3k. hehe i need a kitty. going to get one when i move out! which will hopefully be soon after i get a full time job. finally got my internship to go through. still not ready for school, which is a day after tomorrow. (ah! lol) but atleast i have a three day weekend and two days off from school after that. still have to work, but oh well. :) hehe i need to write too, been neglecting my stories. did get something written on winged, but not much. i shall this weekend. can't go to my sister's but i'm going the 10th instead. which is when smash bros comes out! oooo i can't wait for that game. trying to get everything finished before then. heh... not going to happen. well, speaking of which. more portal! ja ne!
-Priestess of Doom

hello everyone, welcome 2008! I hope it's better than last year. last year just wasn't my year. i got a new anime: kanon today, that is amazing. may be better than AIR. I'm not sure yet. love yuichi though. he is my soul mate, or would be if i was an anime character. heh. neways, yeah, feeling under the weather a bit today. i hope i'm not getting sick. and now i have to work tomorrow for my bro since the other employee is still on vacation. grr. oh well, more money for anime! lol and i found out last night that there's more heroic age that i don't have. i was so mad cuz it ended on a really big cliff hanger. so yeah, i have to wait a week to see the ending. atleast i didn't have to order it from maylasia. that would have been horrid. heh. but okay, here's how my weekend went. wed was playing with new stuff. love all my games and shows. thurs was eventful. went shopping after work, which was nuts. but i got assassin's creed for the 360. very very pretty game. i tried it on my bro's big screen. wow. the controls are a bit funky, but it's not like they said it was. whoever they are. :) love it. have to play more. had a weird dream about it last night. but then at night mom and i were watching ratatouille (cute movie), and then boom! i see a flash outside the window, and the house shakes. so mom rushes upstairs thinking its dad falling, (he just had lazer back surgery), but it was the kids next door putting a firework into the fire pit. what dorks! i wanted to smack them so badly. teenagers. but they shoveled our sidewalk the next day after it snowed. heh. fri was just lazy. so was sat and sun. although did get to see someone i hadn't since high school, so that was nice. she just graduated. one more semester for me! i don't want to go back the 17th already. grr. it's too soon. we should get a whole month off. heh. monday was awesome cuz i got my el cazador cds! love them to death. love yuki so much. she has no idea. *listens to inca rose* wow. i want the show too, but noooo. heh. this sat is hockey! i can't wait to eat at fat jack's. my friend might be coming too, don't know yet. but i can't wait. hopefully it won't snow like it did last time and we couldn't go. that would suck. it's really cold out now, but still going to my bro's to play games and watch kurau. christmasu! okay... scaring myself. i'm really out of it, and sore. so... oyasumi! hope everyone had a good new year's day and didn't party too hard. i had a little rum in 7up, that was good. got a little too hyper after that though and couldn't fall asleep for awhile. heh. but it's good. mmmm. might have another one tonight. lol well, off i go. ja ne!
-Shadow Lies Within

Yes, I got lots of swag. :) Let's see, a list. Um... the new Leann Rimes cd, a cooler for my laptop and a hand rest thingy, a few sweaters, a gps system for my car! (so you will never have to hear my whine about getting lost on here again! yay! lol), tsubasa ova 1 (which is awesome even though it's only one episode), bakumatsu which i like so far, hasn't progressed much yet though, and heroic age, probably my fave thing yet! besides the wii zapper i got from my bro, and necklace i got from my sis that's made out of a shell from florida. it's pretty and shiny. heh. i also got a necklace from laura, who is my cousin. she had my name! yay. i got nights for the wii and rayman 2 as well. and luminous arc for the ds. lots of gift cards! i'm going shopping tomorrow! woot! oh, also got the tsubasa calendar. love it. :) from my friend raena i got an inuyasha plushie and a zel (from slayers) shirt! they are awesome. miss seeing her almost every day. *sniff* speaking of work, i have to tomorrow, so i've been watching and playing as much as i can. oh, got lots of chocolate, which is always good. heh. but it was great at xmas eve dinner we were talking about german foods, and my sis brought up schnizel (spell?) and then it became chicken schnizel, then it somehow became a band name: flamming chicken schnizel. or it could be used as a swear word. lol we tried to light figgy pudding on fire, didn't work so well. lots of rum, just no fire. and xmas morning was also great. we had these wistles that each had a diff note, so my mom had a piece of paper with music on it using the numbers on the whistles. so we tried playing jingle bells, and then oh come all ye faithful. it made my cousin laugh so hard she started crying. so later one of my other cousin's, david, brought his whistle over and kept blowing it. it was so funny. but yeah... i had fun. most of the day i had a headache, which made me nauscious, but luckily it didn't stay. i went to my bro's afterwards and he put halo in his xbox 360 and it broke it. gave him the red ring of death. so he was very upset about that, but he got the entire series of mystery science theater, so he was happy about that. i am too! love that show. speaking of which, going to watch heroic age. much to do. going to get assassin's creed tomorrow! i can't wait! I'm going to be too hyper at work. heh. but probably not for awhile. i won't get lost! lol well, have to go. but here is a poem! hope you all had a nice christmas. there's still my dad's side of the family coming over on sunday. that should be fun... we'll see. ja ne!
Winged

Somewhere in the sky,
in the clouds, floating,
there is a power,
greater than any other,

the wind breezes through,
the wings of a being,
then it dives down,
against the currents,

the wings shutter and soar,
helping the creature live,
but an evil takes over,
blackness falters,

it brings down the power,
reduces it to nothing,
and the wings fade,
and chains wrap its soul,

the dark power grows,
digging into the heart,
but light will prevail,
and conquer the bleakness,

the bright wings fly,
once again,
they soar and dive,
and live once more.

-Shadow Lies Within

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WQUYiyAJw7o
Go watch, now, it is fricken' awesome! and that's an understatement. joker is kind of weird, but omg! i nearly fell out of my chair watching it on my show, which is the most awesome show ever! thank you aots for showing it to me! okay... i'll stop being fangirl. i just loved batman begins so much! lol love batman too. the good cartoon show. kk... other stuff. got done with school today! i was very excited to walk out of there tonight. i did like that class, but still. i wanted to be done. and i did really well in my accounting class. which is good for me, since i'm not a math person. i wonder about econ though. *shutters* work has been good. except for thurs, which was not good. heh. first i almost got hit in the parking lot at work, then my car wouldn't start after work. so i was without a car for awhile. luckily i could still get to school. and the starter didn't cost anything, so that was even better. i can't wait until xmas! hopefully my cold will go away soon. i just have a stuffy nose and a little scratchy throat, but it's not as bad as last year's. eeeew. that was horrible. not going to think about that... let's see, other interesting things. my guild is gone for right now. it's coming back on xmas day. well, at midnight. :) i will still be up since we have to go to church. i hope we go to the 11 o'clock one. don't want to get up too early. i have to tomorrow though for work. we open at 8 a.m. ew. but i only have to go two days out of the week. my milky's getting a checkup tomorrow too! aww, poor car. i love it though. only died on my twice now. hehe. well, going to go squeal silently to myself for awhile about the batman trailer. soooo make sure to watch! oh, and after u can read this poem too:
Cold Destiny

Do you ever wonder what it would be like,
To have a different destiny,
If yours is one of cold, bleak disaster,
Destruction is all you have,

Something in the snow waits,
It waits for the return,
Of its dark secret,
The one that has been kept hidden all this time,

The time has come for you,
To decide on a future,
That may be on a forbidden path,
But it is the only way,

Something whispers through the dark cold night,
It reaches the wind and carries,
It travels through the snow and ice,
Reaches you with a cold touch,

The death surrounds the sky,
It calls out, the scratchy voice fails,
It falls and strays,
Another thing is conjured in the night,

Embrace your future, your cold, cold destiny,
It wants to find you,
Wants to hold on to your soul,
Holding on for its dear existence,

Please accept it,
Take it without hesitation,
And you will soon see,
That you were meant for this destiny,
This cold, cold destiny.

hope u like! it's a long one. hehe. there will be a looooong one like movies was later. much later. :P okay, gtg. ja ne!
-Shadow Lies Within

so yeah, here i am, lying in bed last night thinking, i can get atleast 7 hours of sleep if i fall asleep right now. but do i? no, it's now 3:30, still thinking i can get some sleep, but the the plows and garbage trucks decide to come down our block a couple hours later, which wake me up, from a weird dream about my cousin's wedding, so i was thankful for that. but still. i would have liked to have stayed sleeping. then it was time to get up anyways, so i pulled myself out of bed. well, dragged. i still feel like a zombie. and my arm and leg hurt because i had to shovel out the snow from the garage to create a path that my car could get through. why don't i have four wheel drive? and everyone on the road does, so they think they can drive like maniacs and get me killed! thank you ppl, thank you very much. as we speak there is a cop going by. there was one on the way home too. i wish ppl would stay off the road when there's snow on the ground, but they don't. i think there's more of them. arrg! makes me mad. but good things happening this week. last two weeks of school! yay! got my stuff done for tonight's class, so happy about that. and i ordered a new fictionjunction cd, which i can't wait for! hehe. they're so awesome. i've already said that like a million times already, but still. it's true. :) and it was my mom's bday on monday. she's 54. i got her a snow baby ornament, which she liked, so i was glad. oh, and pirates came out on tues! watched that since i didn't go to my bro's. it was snowing like crazy. sat we didn't go to the hockey game because of the snow. it sucked. but atleast they won! woot! found out that one tree hill will be starting again jan 4th, very happy. been waiting too long! well, have to eat now. can't wait to go shopping this weekend for xmas! heeee. 19 more days! okay, i shall go. here's a poem:
Sandy Weather

The dust falls down,
It fades into the midnight,
And drifts on the wind,
As you turn your back, it breezes by,

It sheds your tears,
Takes the place of all waking dreams,
The storm is coming nearer,
It seeps, pours, drains,

The storm rages around me,
It swirls and scratches my skin,
It tears the blood from the inside,
And then tears up my soul,

Sometimes the weather is dusty,
It comes and goes whenever,
And it hurts to see it go,
Because it always comes back,

I know it hurts in my heart,
The pain is too much,
I try to find some way to soothe,
My aching soul and body,

The sandy weather is all I have,
You disappear into the fading sun,
It seeps down into the horizon,
And I am left all alone in the desert,

Loneliness overpowers,
It takes control and breaks me,
Please take this dust away,
Take it back to the land it once knew,

It leaves me still, leaves me broken,
But somehow I am relieved,
Because you are near, you are the storm,
It calms the world, that calm that I love,

Somewhere I know you are watching,
Deep within my soul and heart,
It stretches out into the deep sky,
And never leaves again… this sandy weather.

There u go. more later. ja ne!
-Lina

go to gendou.com, click on synchronicity by yui makino and listen, it is awesome, and i love the composer, of course. she is my fave one. :) it makes me happy, and i need something to make me happy today. last night wasn't the best. had a great day, got to see my bro who i hadn't seen since thurs, so i was happy. then i watched buffy, and got majorly depressed. so i blame her for anything i say weird on here, or if i do anything weird. i'm going to my bro's and his "ex" is going to be there, maybe. so it will be awkward, but i need food. lol even though my stomach hasn't been great the last couple of days. fri was horrible, accidently ripped off my big toe nail. i must have bumped it against something. and it came off, still hurts. especially with shoes on. but in any case, u don't want to hear about that. heh. today... let's see, went to church, came home and found this song which makes me happy. and watched battlestar razor. wow, wasn't what i was expecting. although i hated adm. cain, i can understand why she was so uptight. i am still very glad that she's gone. and lee's xo too, didn't like her. she was kind of cool at the end, but other than that. bad accent. sorry, i just feel like ranting today. so deal. heh. but other things. sara came over after that and we watched bones, that was it. now i'm going to go try and play mario, don't know how well i'll do, but maybe i'll get the star in the sling pod galaxy. man do i hate that one. paul did it in a few tries. grrr. hopefully i can get some writing in this week. don't know. my mom's bday is next mon, so i have to get her present at some point. and end of semester stress is already starting. ahhh! but xmas in a month! I can't wait. oh, thanksgiving was good too. lots of food, whole mom's side of family came over practically. it was fun, got to see my cousins. and i had off on a thurs! hehe. i've been off for awhile and ready to go to work tomorrow. i actually miss it, where at my old job i was there every single day, almost. i would have been too. well, this is better heh. not too stressful. well, ja ne!
-Priestess of Doom

Yes, i saw him live last night. so awesome! and that's an understatement. wow, it was good. gary allan opened for him, that took about 40 mins. then they had a break. then he came on. they had a huge hd tv that displayed the band, one time they had the ipod type background where it was just the shadow of the person playing. it was cool. he sang all of the singles, my fave song: i told you so. :) i was very happy. the whole time i was thinking 'i'm seeing keith urban, live. there's no way!' i was shivering partly because it was cold at first, and the adrenaline kicked in. lol sara was had a good time too. there was one part where they played in the middle of the floor and he made up a song, waiting for the technical crew to get together. it was great. then he brought a little boy up onto the stage and he gave keith a picture of a rooster and a barn. it was cute. and he took flowers in his teeth. that was funny :) oh, i want to go again! hopefully my dad will be able to go next time. it was kind of hard getting out of the parking lot, but we made it. but yeah, i'm going to have to get the cds i don't have and the gary allan ones now. i'm so glad i'm working again. i didn't get a t-shirt, unfortunately. the line was too long. oh, and they also did a cell phone wave where he told everyone to hold up their cell phones and do the wave. it was cool. he said it was like a bunch of horny fireflies. lol it was great. but yeah, i could die now and be happy. i'm not saying i want to, just that i'd be happy. neways. other stuff. started the arcade two weeks ago. :) it's been a week. pretty good so far. monday was kind of a bad day, but it got better. i got mario galaxy on tues! it's so awesome! i love it. it makes me frustrated sometimes because u have to time it just right so that the gravity doesn't work against you. but it's so much fun. going to go play it now. wed i just had school, thur work and school. we're starting our travel arrangements thing. it's okay so far. we only have 3 more weeks left! i can't wait to be done! and xmas is coming soon too. thanksgiving next week! turkey. mmmmmmmmm. lol well, i'm going to go play more mario. i only have 45 stars, i have to catch up with my bro. i don't want to beat it too quickly though. although then i could get assassin's creed. want that game. need a new xbox one. well, bye everyone! here is a poem too.
Breaking

The winter cracks,
It tears through the snow,
Sometimes blowing,
Everything away,

Cool water runs over skin,
It seeps into the surface,
And then falls down,
Down into the earth,

This is death,
It is breaking the soul,
It is harboring for new life,
For new paths to take,

The snow falls down hard,
And it keeps falling,
But there is a light,
One lonely light in the darkness,

With that light one is able to see,
What is ahead, what lies,
In the wait of the night,
In the silence, it burns,

Something is breaking apart,
All the lies and death,
All the evil and destruction,
And brings it all back,

When will it be over?
Only the sound of cracking is heard,
This is life,
It is breaking chaos, breaking the heart.

it's kind of wintery. hehe. there shall be more, i promise! ja ne!
-priestess of Doom

Hehe, just watched ah my goddess. good stuff. but yeah, this week is the week that has decided to give me a cold. thanks a lot. something's going around, and i'm not liking it. but that's not stopping me. i still did everything today. got dvds, got lunch and brought it to the arcade, started training for working there (fun stuff! heh going to be great), then came home for awhile, went to violin, came home again, went to school, and now i'm waiting to go to my bro's. i'll get to see him more often now! he'll get sick of me. mwuahaha. nah. but yeah, last week was good. raena and i went to the arcade on wed. hehe. and we had lunch. thurs i had a meeting to go to at the kenosha campus, which i got a little lost trying to find, but i got there in time. so all was good. fri was fun just because zack (aots host) was in atlantis. hehe. 'i don't wanna go there!' he did a good job acting. better than ronin ever could. he's getting sort of better, but not really. :P then sat was the hockey game, which was awesome. they beat mich tech 3 to 2! and at one point the ref took the puck, and wouldn't drop it for awhile, so the crowd kept saying 'drop the puck' then after the game was over we were all walking to get to the parking lot when we were stopped at the street. the police were directing traffic so my uncled decides to yell 'drop the puck!' at the top of his lungs. he made the crowd laugh at least. it was funny. then amy came back with us and stayed over night. we watched tru! run tru run! lol sun. she went home and i went to church, out to lunch and shopping. i got some new shoes, fuzzy boots, two shirts and two sweaters. i was happy. i went out to eat and to paul's at night. monday i practically did nothing until class. so yeah. tomorrow i'm seeing kristine and having lunch. then i'm spending the day at school. then thurs i start work! yay! well, not officially. that won't be for a week or so. they pushed back my interview at sears until sat. grr. the manager's on vacation or a meeting or something. 'everybody say yeah, everybody say yeaaah' lol nowhere love. kristin holt is actually a good singer. i wish she had more good stuff out. but have to go watch more tru! shall be on sometime next week. so excited for the keith urban concert! i'm seeing it with my friend sara. so it shall be fun, and i will be better by then. *listens to yuki and dances around* here is a poem that i wrote for halloween. oh, that was fun. check out my costume on my site. i was kaname.
Moving Ghosts

There, in the dark, is something,
Is it alive?
Who really knows,
It comes without warning,

Sometimes it will call,
It will scream out,
Fear trembles,
It scares it all away,

The ghosts are moving through the past,
They come and go without warning,
When the mist clears,
It is only darkness,

The spirits rise,
They come through the cracks,
And walk the streets,
But no one can see them,

Mist surrounds the streets,
It comes silently,
And follows a path,
That is hard to tell,

Somewhere out there is something,
Something evil and terrifying,
Yet it seems harmless,
Even though it is ghastly,

When will this night of the dead end?
Who knows,
The moving ghosts continue on,
Until they have a final resting place.

Enjoy! Ja ne!
-Priestess of Doom

So, let me start off by saying that this week has been crap. Spent all day yesterday almost having a breakdown. i was so happy when my night class was cancelled. actually, that was tues too that i was going to cry. i don't know... maybe it's because of the crappy interview i had on fri, which wasn't really an interview at all. i go into boston store, sit down, the lady asks about me, so i start talking. then she looks at my schedule and goes 'oh, i'm sorry, we need ppl for weds. and u aren't available then, so we can't even continue the interview' so i'm like okay. is this going to be every place i go into now? i have a sears interview coming in nov. hopefully they would tell me first before i go. so then i was kind of cranky all day sat, except we went to the hockey game, which kicked butt! it was so awesome. there were huge fights, which lasted about five mins each. and the badgers won 8 to 2. That made my day. and i got to eat at the best rib place ever. and see my cousin who i haven't seen in forever. everyone came, except dad and my bro, they both had to work. :( but yeah. sun. was just a lazy day, played bioshock and beat it again as the evil guy. i liked that ending better than the good one. we went for dinner and then i went to paul's to watch stuff he had taped for me. like death note so far. even though light has quatre's voice. *shutters* and naruto... i want to tie sasuke up and smack him around a bit. but i can't. grr. let's see, monday was good until i went to class, then we had to publish our websites to the internet, and that didn't happen on mine because i screwed something up. so i went in today to have him fix it. he did manage to get it fixed, but i don't know what the heck i did. so that started the week off crummy. tues i just didn't care anymore. atleast i had carrie underwood music and that made it a little better. i was suppposed to have the interview then, but she called in the morning and said the manager had to switch. then i went to paul's like i normally do at night, go the third 2nd dvd from him. :) good stuff. have to find the soundtrack somewhere. speaking of which, i hope my transformers one comes soon! so awesome. i got that last week. paul liked it, as he should. everyone should! it kicks ass for the lord. hehe. but yeah, yesterday was okay except i felt kind of sick and class was long, didn't do too well on the quiz i don't think. and traffic was horrible. man, it was like a friday. i swear. and ppl are so impatient too. i don't understand how there aren't more accidents. (sorry for the double negative heh) today has been good so far. cried during house cuz it was the one where foreman was dying! nooo! atleast he apologized to cameron. i'm glad steve mcqueen didn't get sick! lol he's cute for rat. but i can go to the keith urban concert, hopefully my friend can too. otherwise my dad's coming. he's going to vegas tonight. so jealous. want to get away right now. maybe i'll take a little nap now just to calm down. this ranting has helped too. :) i want my deviantart verification email to get here. i'll have to do it again. well, here is a poem that i recently put on my site. there will be more this weekend due to halloween coming up! my costume's almost done! i can't wait. i'm not going to wear it to school, since it's a skirt, but i'll have pictures probably on my site. well, here's the poem:
Silence

The quiet of the night,
It haunts every move,
Sometimes watching with its dark eyes,
Pierces through the dark,

When will it end?
The sun is far from coming,
It will take awhile,
Before twilight can come,

The calm of the mist is soothing,
It strikes with compassion, with love,
It will guide a soul back to the ground,
It streams through the air at night,

The silence, the calm, the quiet,
It soothes the heart,
And will never become darkness again,
Because it has already fallen,

The wolf cries,
The moon shines down on the water,
It shimmers and shines,
But nothing will break this silence,

Try to listen,
Just listen to the night and its sounds,
The stars are clouded over,
But they are still there,

Every soul climbs to the sky,
As the sun rises,
It pierces the dark,
Rays of pure gold come and destroy what’s left,

With the dawn it comes,
It still rules even in the light,
It comes,
The silence.

weeeeee! have to beat zelda today. i hate drawing the hourglass. makes me want to break the ds. but i don't want to do that either. grr. lol sorry for all the ranting. next week will be better! ja ne!
-Shadow Lies Within

so let's see, what happened. didn't go to lost world but went the next thurs. they didn't have my sis's present, so i'll have to get it for her for xmas. i got her some pretty earings though that she liked. so that was good. that sunday was fun. didn't do much of anything except dinner and played wii play with tony. heh. then raena came on wed, she played as well. i beat metroid prime 3 as well. very cool ending. i was pleased. thurs was lost world, got two silent mobius comics, since they were 50% off. love when that happens. hehe. i only need one more now and then the collection will be completed. lol but yeah, weekend was lazy. i got a letter back from von briesen saying thank you for my resumee and they would contact me shortly if it matched their requirements. haven't heard from them yet, but hope to. that would be awesome if i could get a job in my field now. i'm kind of sick of not doing anything all day but watch tv, play games and go on the comp. i know, why would i be sick of that? i don't know.

other stuff, hmm. saw 1408, it was good. very creepy though. sam jackson was great, of course. heh. and i didn't mind john cusak too much. i thought i would dislike him, but he's an all right actor, just looks kind of weird. speaking of weir, lol atlantis! wow... love the fall season. plus started bionic woman and pushing daisies. and of course heroes started! woo! i love hiro, he's awesome. completely disrupts the timeline, and then takes the place of a great japanese hero and makes the princess fall in love with him. awesome. i'm so glad the series hasn't gone cheesy yet. well, completely. lol and saresh can talk french anytime. :) i like him too. but yeah, the other two shows are good. bionic woman is sort of cheesy, but in a good way. and pushing daisies is definately a british show. there's a narrator, which gets kind of annoying, but i like the show so far. ned is cute. hehe. transformers comes out soon! one week! i thought it was this tues, i was wrong. *sniff* atleast i'll have vanessa carlton's new cd. and fate to watch. yay!

went to gurnee yesterday, that was fun. traffic was horrible, so it put my bro in a bad mood, but we had fun shopping. found mom's xmas present. yay! one down. heh. got this ugly yet beautiful world soundtrack. it's pretty good. listening to it now. may watch it again after stratos 4. instructor iwasaki is hoooooot. man, i forgot how hot he was. *drools* okay, time to go write. i am going to get chapter one of my book done today. yes, i said book. i wasn't going to have midnight shadows be a book, but i decided on it. i got some really good ideas from 1408 and other things, but don't worry, they're all original. heh. oh, yesterday we had the business dinner thing during class. it was interesting. margary sinclair came and talked about ediquette. she was funny. the dinner was good too, prime rib. mmmmm. i wasn't all that hungry, but i ate it. lol and of course the desert. chocolate pie. it was yum. well, going to go before i fall asleep. i'm glad we got out early from accounting because of the test. i was falling asleep. well, i shall have a poem up next time, since i'm going to do that this weekend too. along with play more zelda phantom hourglass. it's awesome when i know what i'm doing. :P okay, syonara!
-Shadow Lies Within

hey! 'and it's glorious just to laugh like us!' love this song! it's so awesome. i love natalie. she's awesome! it's about time she had a singles collection. heh. well, interview went well. it was fun actually, we had to describe a toy and then put it back on the shelf. we couldn't find one of the girl's toys, so we finally asked someone. i found mine right away. heh. but then it was just one on one interviews. so i think i did all right. hopefully they'll call. it's been a week, so hopefully soon i'll hear from them. i want a job before transformers comes out! which is oct 9th, same day vanessa's new cd comes! and new carrie underwood finally. oct 23rd. she took too long. but yeah, mainly i've been at school. i lost all my files for front page the other day. that made me mad. so i ordered it online and hopefully it will come before monday so i'm not behind. i'm sure he'll understand though. it just makes me angry. i love computers most of the time, but when they screw things up for u, it sucks. but yeah... i was supposed to go to lost world today to get my sis's bday present, which she will have to get for xmas cuz we couldn't go, my bro had to get his games ready for the arcade auction on sat. poo. we're going next week though, so it's all good. unless i'm working, of course. heh. i saw two ppl today who used to come in the store. and i was going to see raena yesterday, but she was sick. awww. i hope she gets better soon. i have a tiny cold, but it's going away. yay! i don't want a cold like i had last year ever again! it was bad. well, i'm going to go read a kathy reichs book! bones! hehe. i can't wait to get the 2nd season back from renee so i can watch it again. wow is that show awesome! and heroes starts on monday! i can't wait! and tues michael shanks is going to be on eureka! woohoo! i love daniel. but u already knew that. :) well, here is another poem. yes, i have another one! i know, wow. i have to write more this weekend. all day sat is going to be just writing. i have a lot of updating to do. so, i shall post sometime next week. ja ne!
The Glass of Destruction

It comes, the power,
The greatness of it all,
Some will use it for evil,
Some will just cry,

The glass of destruction is in us all,
It sleeps until night,
Then becomes a part of our souls,
It consumes us,

Something breaks free,
The light can destroy the glass,
It can bring back happiness,
But that is only if someone’s soul is pure,

Today it will awaken,
Within the heart,
And it will pour all of the destruction,
That is has onto you,

The eye watches,
Patiently it stares,
It will move towards you,
But you will not give up,

Please,
Don’t let it take over,
This evil that’s inside,
It will be the death of everything,

When will it all end?
Whenever the glass of destruction,
Is destroyed.

yeah, i know, weird title. i couldn't think of anything. :) i will be better next time. syonara!
-Priestess of Doom